I’ve sat here staring at this blank page for a long while now, trying to figure out how exactly to start this first blog post. I guess the first question I could ask myself is, why exactly did I decide to start a blog?

Well… I’m not quite sure, to be honest.

I’m a bit of (what I refer to as) a dabbler; I dabble here and there with many different artistic hobbies. I enjoy making jewelry, painting and drawing, taking photos, cooking, tie-dyeing, music, and yes, writing. I have a bit of life experience, after 27 years in this world, and this year especially has been very trying for me, my family, and my friends. I honestly have a lot to say and show to the world — I’m just never quite sure of myself.

With that being said, some more information about me: I suffer from a tremendous amount of anxiety. Ever since I was a little girl, I’ve always second-guessed myself before opening my mouth to speak. If words come out the wrong way, or if I happen to stutter mid-sentence, I feel an immediate sense of doom, which is right around the time that I want to curl up in a corner and hide away for a while. Unless, of course, I’m in the company of the people closest in my life. I enjoy being goofy, talking about obscure and taboo topics, singing in ridiculous voices, and talking to my cat, Rainbow (don’t worry, you will meet her soon.)

I guess one could call this blog an experiment, or maybe I will call it a challenge to myself. I have nothing specific I will be discussing in this blog, just about whatever is in my head at the time. That’s not to say that I won’t have anything interesting to say. I have a lot that I would like to say and share with the world — sometimes it will be to raise awareness to certain subjects, and other times it will be just because I need to get something off my chest. This blog is intended to be my sounding board, where I can talk about anything I want. I may just want to tell a story, whether it be something going on in my life (past or present stories), or it could be poetry. I might share a series a photos from nature walks or my travels to big cities; I may also share recipes and include step-by-step imagery. I may do tutorials on how to create things, such as repurposed items, jewelry and tie-dyed accessories. And, if and when I feel brave enough, I just may post videos of myself singing and playing my ukulele, Loretta (yes, she has a name), or playing anything I’m able to make noise with (…these things are known to happen from time to time).

So, without further ado, welcome to my humble blog. I appreciate your interest in what I have to say and what I’m doing with my life. Hopefully this challenge will help me fuel my artistic ways, heal from the hard times in life, and allow me to more fully blossom into the creative soul that I am.

Thank you for checking out my little Noeisms. 🙂